Music Got me Love and Love Got me Music

29th December 00:45
Never really been crazy about music... but Music has always had an effect on me. Irrespective of what genre, what language, there was always this connect. It had the power to change my mood from a low to an instant high. Was easy for me in some ways to get lost in the melodies, the rhythm. Rock, Hard Rock, Soft Rock, Pop, Jazz, Country, Classical... however one differentiates and defines music..... the effect is the same..... it creates Magic. And so it did for me ..... and in some ways ......it got me much more than I cud ever ask for....

It helped me live my dream... I got so lost in the music that for those moments I forgot who I was.. and just followed my heart. I lived and felt all that I have always wanted to. Music took me to a different world.. I never knew existed...... it led me to my love... Music helped me realise how beautiful it was what I had in that moment...

I am just a novice.. wanting to know more, feel more, live more... and I want music to be part of my life forever. Almost each day I share a piece of music that we both can listen to...and we do. It connects us like nothing else.............. It transcends the distance ... it makes me feel alive. Thanks to Mush, I have learnt to appreciate music like never before. He simply loves his music, and the passion that he is possessed with, is infectious. I am getting to learn about a genre of music that I was never exposed to... and I do like the sound of it. We could spend hours together just listening to Our Music.....

Hmmm... talking about which... I guess it’s not how it works for all of us. While I was still typing this.. I get a text ( I am not sure if could quote him, but I am taking the liberty) from a friend asking me “Such a lovely weather and I feel like I am wasting it in these usual fares like dinners, movies and just drives etc.. where has the romance gone .... It pricks me all the time .. !!”

I feel sad.. not for my friend... but knowing how we feel deprived of this emotion, while it is still all around us. I never knew how much power it holds... till it came to me.......... gentle like a feather touch and strong like the Katrina.... shook me up and got me here.... I feel blissful........... I am in love !
Time to say goodnight ......with a wish that we all find love in all our relationships.... that we all are happy..........and that we all adopt music....... cus it sure has the power to heal and it also has the power to bring a smile........ to bring happiness!!

Adios!

The Redemption......

24 October 2008 – 07.01 AM

It’s been a beautiful morning, and so was the feeling when I had gone to bed last night. It was a mixed feeling but then, just before I drifted away to sleep my mind was put at ease with a thought that was as serene as this morning. Winters have set in ...and one can feel the change in weather. Days are much shorter and tends to get cold in the evenings. The kinda weather which makes you curl up into your bed every morning craving for some more sleep. I just love winters.............. and a hot cuppa tea/coffee in bed just makes it perfect.

A slight chill in the air... hearing to my mom walking around the house doing her stuff( she is an early riser........ no wonder she tries to get me off the bed at 6 am , even on a holiday....). Have been up for more than an hour or so. Waking up in the morning has never been more refreshing than it has been in the past 2 months. Sleep or no sleep.........am always up with a smile. No more complains about not having slept enough no more...

Watched “The Shaw shank Redemption” last night (mainly to kill time and ward off any sleep that would have reached me ) I couldn’t believe that I had the movie on my system for almost a year and I never really bothered, till until someone thought it would be a good idea if I watched the movie. Highly recommended!! So, thought of giving it a shot............and much to my surprise...........and like I was told, it turned out to be rather good........Very good if I may add. It may seem like I am writing a review or something (No, I am not being paid for this) or trying to endorse the movie........... but its kinda worth it. It leaves you with a liberated feeling ......somewhat like Tim Robbins might have felt when he drove down the road into Mexico. For me it had a different kind of effect. I wish I could ever explain how it felt or give it words....... I can’t.

Haven’t written in a long time. And I have come to terms with the fact that I really cannot write unless I have that urge to.........and unfortunately for me........... I only have the urge to scribble at the odd times when I wud have no access to anything close to a notepad. I guess it’s to do with what kinda mood I am in. I must confess, I have been kinda busy ( more than usual) over the past 2 months.... and I aint complaining....Trust Me !! It couldn’t get better than this. J

Woke up, with all the intention of going back to sleep, because waking up again the way I did an hour ago was more appealing than anything I could have ever thought of. But, no matter what I did , I just couldn’t get back to sleep. Haven’t been out of my room at this time of the morning.... in a long time. so, it was kinda nice feeling. Even the newspaper came after I had gotten up.........now that hasn’t happened in a long time................... if you know what I mean. Unlike my usual routine, I haven’t really caught up well with the news or the newspaper lately which is so unlike me, unless of course the news is BIG enough and is on my face kinds. Have been doing very well with the headlines................ not getting into the details....and may be its not even worth it. News these days seem more like bad work of fiction..... and we people subject to an ending which is more than just predictable, or with no ending at all. With all that is happening around us, all of it seems more like a joke. The latest disappointment being the murder of Soumya Vishwanathan.......with no suspects............no accused........... no traces of evidence. Looks like it’s one of the many stories which will die its own death. I guess, we have got numb to all of this.......... has become mundane............and no one seems to care no more. May her soul rest in peace !!

Let me not get carried away, cus this morning is supposed to be beautiful, filled with all the good things I can possibly imagine. Day is gonna be busy........... but I am sure I will have a good time and try and change a few things around me for the good.

Himesh Reshamiyya playing on the FM....... almost ruining a beautiful day.... so I got to change the station before he does the damage. What was he thinking anyway, when he thought of taking up acting as an alternative career option and putting all of us through the torture. As if his music wasn’t enough for all the pain ( in the ASS) it would cause . Sorry about the language.........but that's the kinda feeling he triggers in me.

Time to get up from the comforts of my bed I believe. All I wanted to do was write something............ because that's what I do, when I am feeling good ........or really sad. I guess the reason today is more pleasant than it ever has been. Listening to “Baatein” .......... from Rock On. Music to my ears........ leaves me with a feel good factor always........ a bit thoughtful......... The song has kinda grown on me and it give me a sense joy every time I listen to it. It may not have an evergreen melody...but its working for me now and that's what matters I guess. Funny how music can have this butterfly effect on you...............and sometime Life changing effects too............. as it turns out in my case. J Songs I never thought I would listen to more than twice have become a Mantra for me. ......elevating my mood to a new high every time I listen to them.

With that thought lingering .............. me signing off and preparing to have another beautiful day of my life...................

Fall in love............... and no amount alcohol can ever give you a HIGH as love does !! J An honest suggestion............. if It doesn’t find you...............GO FIND IT !! Worth every second of your life!!

Hasta La Vista....

cranky me............

I feel like talking so much...........although I can hardly utter a word. Sore throat. And the fever. Sree tells me that I have created so much hype about being feverish. U bet !! It’s not every day that fever comes visiting. And considering the passion with which it has embraced me, it looks like it is here to stay ........... at least for a while 

And then I am also reminded of a dear friend, who would tell me that he is bedridden and unwell, the moment the mercury touches 98 or 99. I wonder what he would say if it were ever went up to 100 or 102. I wish it never happens to him, but just hypothetically thinking. Kartik... u need to grow up !!! Look at me........102 and still going strong !!!

I have been keeping myself busy with a lot of DVDs / Music, and not to mention the SLEEP !! Because that's all I can do .......... have been confined to bed. There I go ..............talking about the most recent event in my life. My engagement with Fever!! I just can’t seem to get over it somehow. .... and a few others. Like they say.......time heals it all. ...... the fever would go away too.

But what happens to those answers I seek.... it seems quite important for me to know what happened. I mean.... that's the least I guess I could ever ask for. But then, it’s our life. We cannot be asked too many questions for the decision we take in life. But somehow at times it is just so crucial to maintain the sanctity.

I felt awkward...weird if I may add........ and couldn’t really believe it at first. And then, I chose not to be affected by what happened, and I let it pass.......... Momentary disbelief..................... I thought maybe it will get over soon............ I was wrong!! It did get over, in the most obnoxious strange ways possible..and in the literal sense too ........and looks like I will never know why!! I know I am talking about things which sound strange ................ but then I don’t care!! And the most annoying bit is ........... pretending !!! To behave as of the person does not exists......... even though he /she would be right there ..............on your face. So, am getting used to that too. The only possession I have in my life is my friends, and the people who are close to me. And no matter how sour the existence together was, it has never ended in a bad note. We may not have continued to be great friends, but have kept the friendship alive. All of us keep in touch, no matter where we are, what we do. Never really had to look away............... but now, I have to learn to do that too... ... it isn’t easy.................

But at least I know, I will never walk away............ I will always be here............... and I so desperately want to believe that it isn’t always like it appears. And there is always something good which is waiting to happen in all our lives, and that people choose to behave in a manner for a reason ( best known to them at times.................) and behind all the harsh realities there is always a warm truth.

Ok.... so, that's that !! I am hoping I feel better tomorrow. I was hoping that I would be better today, but somehow it wasn’t meant to be. I haven’t been so sick in my entire life. I can’t wait to get out of my house, cus I know the moment I step out......... I will be all fit and fine.

R is meeting his newfound love tomorrow ( I mean...yeah.) she is from our school..............and they met again after all these years............and......BINGO they hit it off. I am all too excited about it. It is so sweet when it is your school friends. I am glad that he finally found someone special.

Looks like I should wrap it up now..........looks like I have written enough................ not that any of it would make any sense to anybody (including myself).......but what the heck!!

Good night sweetheart.........................see you soon !